Lost in the Fumes (2017) User Reviews

"I never knew the limits of humanity but I've learnt many sorrows gradually. As I tasted both establishment and freedom."

[nancyliu-39104 · 7/10 · 30 December 2020]

It's always kind of weird for me to write something in English after watching a film in Cantonese/ Mandarin, etc.: they are closer to my native language but i can only write my rambling here. But just like what Edward said walking along the road in US, "I think I'm more composed; I distanced myself. And became more objective. Apparently." Probably writing in the other language can do the same thing to me. I cannot help but compare this documentary with Our Youth in Taiwan. This is way more difficult, more struggle and heavier. As one suffered from depression, Edward pushed himself into politics, and more importantly, into election, in HK. First in 2016 New Territories East by-election, and then the 2016 Legislative Council election. He knows that his states have changed: "Becoming the kind of people I despise", "I'm no longer a activist, I'm now a politician." - "I'm now just a political swindler." That's the truth he was forced to faced: rather than Chen Wei-ting's Sexual Abuse, Edward has to betray himself, delete all his "wrong" speech print for his propose. This is a topic being discussed over and over again, and it just got enlarged in the political related cases like this. Is what you want more important than how you get it? The decision is never easy, especially battling with your own ideals. But he had made the choice, before knowing he will end up achieving nothing. "The regime does not want me inside the LegCo. But be it crawling or creeping in, no matter what it takes, I have to get in." - "I have no choice." How should we process and understand the journey after his disqualification by supporting Baggio Leung? i might see it as a semi-transition period for Edward after all his rollercoaster game with the politics, actually from the beginning, as an activist. And for his mental health, to digest everything happened. And now he is in prison, for months and 6 more years to come. And what can i say about HK, only the worst is yet to come. Nora is less emotional and personal in her way of telling the story, talking to his friends and comrades about what kind of people he is. I love the silence gaps between the asked question and his answer, and all his frank confession about his struggle and tiring. "I never knew the limits of humanity but I've learnt many sorrows gradually. As I tasted both establishment and freedom."